Monday, May 21, 2018

Reliability is subjective

6 December 2017, 10:46pm

When I get to your age 
I can relate to you

Isn't it weird and heart breaking

that we'll never be able to relate 
in the real time and space 
as each other a
at the same time 

Reliability is subjective and dependent 


Ella Fence

Stories

6 December 2017, 11:28pm

Stories happen when things don't go to plan


Ella Fence

Safety

5 December 2017, 7:56pm

I let myself feel everything
So I let myself down
No one else does this to me
It's me 
reflecting me

Diving in deep
Too quick to
Everything

Then retreating, acting too cool

Maybe I prefer to be alone
It's the only time I'm really in control
All my interactions I over think


21 May 2018, 10:17pm

Maybe it's easier being alone
But no, I do not prefer it
and I choose to not give in to that safety


Ella Fence

Beauty?

5 December 2017, 3:05pm

I take beauty out of moments
Because I think about the fact 
That they won't last forever 

21 May 2018, 10:11pm

I need to stop doing this to myself

Ella Fence

Opening the windows

Let the light in
Let the air in
Let the love in


Ella Fence 

Art

4 December 2017, 9:02am

There is art in everyone 
There is art in everything 

Ella Fence

Surprises and expectations

4 December 2017, 8:20am
& 21 May 2018, 10:00pm

Sometimes the world catches you by surprise 
And sometimes you get exactly what you'd expect 
Either can be painful 

Sit up sit up sit up because you can't sleep 

Lie low lie low lie low because you're too tired


Ella Fence

Bed

21 November 2017, 8:00am

I finally feel myself again 
Excited about waking up again 
I'd rather just lay in bed I'm comfortable instead 
But it's a good thing this time 

21 May 2018, 9:54pm 

I still can't get out of bed most days

Ella Fence

Brick

19 November 2017, 10:30pm 

The same brick walls that excited you 
Begin to box you in 
The evolution of you and me 
Becomes the forgetting of us

Ella Fence

Actually living

21 January 2018 
& 21 May 2018

Music
I put my life on hold for so long
Because of you

Constantly running away and chasing the next thing
Not wanting to settle in the reality that I was in
But to create a new one

The one in my dreams and fantasies 
But this is my life, the life I’ve created.

From working hard and smart

And it is a good life 

And so I choose I relish

I choose to indulge
I choose to enjoy 

This life
My life

And not let the the dream get in the way of actually living. 


Ella Fence

Balance

19 November 2017, 8:42pm

I'm trying to spend more time alone
Let things happen naturally it's
Funny how we go extreme on both ends
And then end up right back in the middle 

Ella Fence

Stupid shit

17 December 2017, 5:22pm

"Sometimes I drink too much so I have an excuse to do stupid shit"

Ella Fence

The lunatic

"The lunatic, the lover, and the poet are of imagination all compact"

William Shakespeare

Unseen?

6 November 2017, 12:47pm

said some thing I didn't mean
Did things I wish could be unseen 
Told some lies to dry your eyes 


21 May 2018, 8:26pm

Hoping you don’t realise 


Ella Fence

Live the life you lust.